3. 12/30/2024 11:12:01

I hate how telling my dreams are and how they tell about things that have not been relevant for years.

1. Mark, my mother, and my sister in a bus. Mark has this troublesome event that only happens once a year in relation to this bus.
2. We go down somewhere.
3. I see myself walking to this building (Building A).
4. I remember going inside and being awarded some kind of meal tester with the word "(optional)" attached to it. This makes it seem as if there was a scene before this.
5. I remember sitting down with Nikos, David, and someone else.
6. But I also remember having gone up and down another building (Grade Floor Building, or Building B) with Nikos, and in this building, each floor represented a different year. And that was referring to school, even if the school that I attended in real life was not exactly like that. It was not "each floor is a grade." Anyway, in this same scene, one of the floors had my former older female teacher from grade 7.
7. Before I sat down with Nikos, David, and that other person, I was sitting down with Nikos, this girl (who seemed to be many people at once, though I remember them being Felicity at one point).
8. I remember that I somehow was made part of a boy band. I was the new member, and it was somehow related to the building and the school. I was also made part of a war that would happen a year or so from now. I think that I might have been said to be 21 or 22. In real life, I am 21.
9. The time that I was announced to be in a boy band, I was in this other building (Building C).
10. I remember grabbing a chair to sit down and watch something on the phone with Nikos, David, and that other person or guy.
11. We were watching some strange animated scene where people were fighting but could not kill each other, and after a while, one of them showed some weird circular thing to another person, as if that was somehow a piece of the puzzle that could lead to some solution.
12. I remember thinking that the phone in which we watched was too small for me to be able to appreciate it.
13. When I grabbed a chair to sit down, I removed three things belonging to Nikos and placed them elsewhere, probably on another chair. I think that I remember that one of them was a hankerchief, or maybe they all were.
14. I remember that when I was sitting in Building A after we dropped from the bus, when I was sitting down with Nikos, which felt like a separate scene from when I was sitting with him and Felicity and from when I was sitting with him, David, and the other person or guy, I saw my older female teacher do the thing where she says that Nikos is the one that's causing me to talk and make trouble by talking while we were supposed to be watching something in front of us. We were seated in Building A, and Nikos was talking to me about something, probably related to the military thing. This scene might have transitioned to the scene where we were climbing the grade floors and also to the two other scenes, the Felicity one and the Nikos-David one.
15. I remember looking at a Youtube comment afterwards somehow, and it said something a little long. I don't remember what it said, but I remember seeing a popular person reply to it. I thought it was Kyle Hill, but then, for some reason, it changed after I "looked closer" and realized that it was just a random person who had a similar name, since what they said was nonsensical.

Other details:
1. I wanted Felicity to sit down, so I chose to grab the smaller chair with the supposed handkerchiefs. But then she ended up going elsewhere and remained talking to others. Moreover, I realized that the smaller chair was the only option anyway since the flat arm of the only other chair (it was red and looked close to the red one we have at home) was already being used to support the phone for watching.
2. I think the bus scene with Mark, Danielle, and my mother was longer and had more details.
3. I remember telling Nikos, David, and probably some others that I did not want to go to the military.
4. I think Badjoy might have been there while I was talking about the military and sitting down with Nikos and such.

 

What I do not like about this dream is that it reveals so much about my past, what I feel, and what I think about these people based on how I know them.

The fact that I felt a half-sense of pride in knowing that I was going to the military was strange; moreover, I remember feeling good that I was part of the boy band. I remember being concerned about my face as to whether it would be fine. I remember expecting people to start noticing me. I'm 21, so that felt really immature. But in the end, this does reveal a lot about me.

I don't really feel like talking about this dream much since it is so self-evident for me. A lot of the things that I see make sense within the context of my life. However, my current life does not offer any reminders of the past, and even before I slept, I was thinking everything else. It is only in my dreams that my former female teacher, Nikos (who was my former classmate in the same high school where that teacher was, which makes the situation of my teacher blaming Nikos for making my complicit in talking when we were supposed to be quietly sitting and watching the thing in front of us in Building A), Badjoy, and Felicity actually make appearances. In short, the past tends to come back in my dreams, when my waking thoughts barely touch upon those specific aspects of my past or my life even.